Experiencing a Kundalini awakening is a profound and transformative event, one that touches the core of your being. Before it happened to me, I had no idea what a Kundalini awakening was or that it was something people actively sought through Kundalini yoga. But when it occurred during my first Kundalini yoga retreat, it changed me in ways I could never have anticipated.
This blog post recounts my personal journey—how the experience unfolded, what it felt like, and the lasting changes it brought to my life.
Setting the Stage: A Journey Years in the Making
Although I wasn’t aware of Kundalini awakening as a concept, looking back, I realize that many aspects of my lifestyle prepared me for this transformative moment.
For years, I had practiced meditation daily, which helped me cultivate mindfulness and an openness to meditative experiences.
I had also embraced the Wim Hof Method, incorporating breathwork and cold water (mainly showers, but some plunges also) into my routine for over four years, alongside regular hot sauna sessions. These practices strengthened my nervous system and built resilience—qualities that likely helped me handle the intensity of the awakening.
A few months before the yoga retreat, I attended a Dr. Joe Dispenza progressive workshop in Basel, which included elements rooted in Kundalini yoga. That experience gave me a glimpse of the profound energy I would later encounter.
When I arrived at the Kundalini yoga retreat at Normafa Hotel in Budapest, I had no idea what was in store. But as the first gong bath began, I knew I was stepping into something extraordinary.
The Awakening: A Fireball of Energy
The actual awakening happened suddenly. Following a pineal gland meditation, I was lying down in relaxation (savasana) – and felt a massive surge of energy—an intense, fiery sensation that fired at and seemed to move through me like a fireball. Though I was lying completely still on my yoga mat, my body jolted powerfully at the point in time when this wave of energy hit me.
When this happened, my mind started racing at an unprecedented speed through imagery, almost like flipping through photos. Then visually, I saw the fireball come firing at me behind my closed eyes, along with the physically jolt. What followed immediately afterwards was like a kaleidoscope of colours and shapes morphing from one thing to the text. Emotionally, I was completely immersed, observing the experience with curiosity and wonder rather than fear.
The Aftermath: Transformation and Clarity
After the awakening moment, we did a healing meditation and I felt enveloped in healing white light. During the closing parts of the day, I experienced a sense of profound love and clarity about my life.
That evening, I reflected deeply on my personal goals and felt a newfound sense of purpose. I wrote down three intentions:
- To nurture love and connection with others.
- To invite abundance into my life, both financially and spiritually.
- To maintain health and balance in my body.
These goals felt deeply aligned with who I truly am, and the experience left me with a clear resolution to “get back to me”—to live authentically and express myself fully.
Physical and Emotional Highs
That night I really struggled to sleep! I would slip into sleep and wake up within an hour feeling very alert.
The days following the awakening were unlike anything I had ever experienced. I felt a huge surge of energy that lasted for weeks. I wasn’t hungry and had to remind and force myself to eat. At night, I struggled to sleep for a week or two but continued to wake up feeling refreshed, full of energy and vibrant.
Emotionally, I was overflowing with love and joy. It felt as though I was deeply connected to something greater than myself, something divine. There was also an awakening of a deeper sense of my true femininity and sexuality. It was like there was a depth to this within me that I hadn’t fully understood or embraced before.
Integrating the Experience
Returning to daily life after such a transformative event was challenging. The world around me was unchanged, and yet I had shifted profoundly. It felt as though I had returned from my retreat wearing a pair of glasses that made everything look and feel slightly different to how it had been previously – or maybe more accurately that I had finally taken off the lens I’d been looking through all my life prior to that. To ground myself, I spent time in nature, walking and reflecting.
I also made a commitment to practice Kundalini yoga daily, a decision that has anchored me and allowed me to maintain a connection to that profound energy. Joining an online Kundalini yoga community has provided support and a sense of belonging, helping me integrate this new chapter of my life.
Lessons and Reflections
The awakening reaffirmed my belief in a higher force and a deep interconnectedness among all beings. It also strengthened my resolve to live authentically, embracing my feminine energy and moving away from stale structures that once defined my view of the world.
However, I’ve learned to be cautious about sharing this experience. It doesn’t align with societal norms, and I’m aware how weird it sounds! Plus, not everyone is open to or interested in these kinds of stories. Still, I hope that sharing my journey will inspire others to explore the transformative power of Kundalini yoga.
Advice for Others
If you’re seeking a Kundalini awakening, the best advice I can give is to immerse yourself in a retreat. The concentrated time, space, and guidance create the perfect conditions for transformation.
However, it’s essential to approach this journey with an open mind and no expectations. The experience is deeply personal and unfolds uniquely for each individual.
To navigate the process safely, do kundalini yoga with an experienced instructor.
Within yourself you can focus on grounding practices such as walking in nature, meditating, or connecting with a supportive community.
A Lifelong Journey
My Kundalini awakening was a defining moment, but it’s not the end of the journey—it’s a push along with renewed vigour what is a lifelong path of growth, self-discovery, and connection for me.
If you’re curious about what a Kundalini yoga retreat might be like, read about my first retreat here. And if you’re ready to explore the transformative power of Kundalini yoga, take the leap—you never know how it might change your life.